3am I must be lonely

well it's my first saturday night at home in months, and i have to say i don't mind. when you're unemployed all of the days weld together. i often find myself having to check a local source to find out what day of the week it is so i don't miss any haircuts, lacrosse pick-ups, etc. speaking of lacrosse, tomorrow i am getting a pick-up game together. it will be one of the first times i've played lacrosse in way too long. hopefully there is a good turn out so i can refine my mad skills. lacrosse has/hasn't always been there for me when design and life are hectic. it truly is an outlet. i say it hasn't been there for me because i went to college to play lacrosse (and of course become a designer) and it was cut short. the athletic dept ran out of money, long story short, and i choose to stay and become a designer than transfer because of the game. i have had to be creative in ways to stay connected to the game, but luckily i still can play occasionally.
i have the assistant coaching job at my old school, sycamore, for the 2009-2010 season. i am seriously looking forward to becoming a coach. i'm sure there are area varsity head coaching positions open for the upcoming season, but there is no way in my first year out of college that i can handle being a head coach. i'm sure i could, but i want to focus on #1 which is being a graphic designer. maybe next year. i love teaching girls how to play and spreading the game. i've been so fortunate to play with other players with such passion, zeal, and skill. my high school team was the most passionate group i've ever been apart of, and the chemistry was like an out-of-body experience every time we played. my club team was coached by a world cup player along with girls from all over the country; from california to florida. my team at ou was the most fun and outrageously entertaining group i've ever been around, and also the most emotionally tough (especially after what we went through in 2007). i love following how all of my old teammates from high school, club and college do today, especially the super sweet ones that are played in this year's world cup in prague.
i hope that when i coach i have fun, and that the girls have fun. my teammate of 7 years told me yesterday how no matter if you win or lose, if you love your team, you don't care. of course you always want to win over losing, but it's about the people. i'm excited to start a club team one day with my old teammates and take girls to places they've never been and possibly get them noticed by college coaches. if it wasn't for my hs coach and even my club coach, i wouldn't have been at ou.
bottom line: i'm very grateful what lacrosse has brought to me in the last ten years, and i look forward to what it brings me in the future, on the side of my usual design life :)